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A night that fill with loneliness took me to a place full of sorrow.

Can't imagine something once follow closely can be flew right away from the palm of my hand.

Too late to grab it.

Human meant to be selfish, as I tonight agree the point that no one is selfless.

As days go by, I really don't understand what I try to plot as the future is blur.

Thinking that I could really squeeze out the juice from a rotten orange and turn it tasty, I fail as is really just not meant to happen.

This is how proud a human can be, and this is how proud that i could be.

But in the end, this kind of meaningless pride may turn out to be terrible nightmare.

Once again I turn my self in, as I confess that i just a terrible dude that waste it all and can't manage life.

No friends willing to stand beside, family are too far apart and just my worthless pride follow me and label myself as a worthless coward briefing in the face of the earth.

我想出去玩~

已经很久很久没出国了。女友今天去新加坡，过后又去韩国。爸妈六月又出公海坐游轮。姐弟刚从台湾回来不久。全部人都出国旅行，就唯有我哪里都没得去。

我真的很想出国走走。我的最后一次出国，都不是去游玩，而是去打工。只怪自己封锁了自己的经济，不能乱花，不能享受。

Restart again.

Started another relationship after ending a 4 years long one. Is hard to start all over again and is not simple either. This time is a much more younger girl, 5years younger than me to be exact. Needing to drag down a level to coup sometimes. I dunno why I started it. is a 'pull' from her. she extracted me in many ways, physically and mentally. She is looks like the mixture of Utada hikaru and Stephenie Sun, just a bit taller and skinnier. Her character look to be the main attractiveness. But i really not sure. when we first met, is like love at the first sight kind of thingy, but I not convince by my own feelings, and try a move that is so sudden that even frighten her a bit. first is just a test, then it become permanent, we gel together.

brought her gifts that sound strange, like a hot water pillow. this was the first thing that I brought her when she felt gastric. The second one was a CNY Hamper for her family(it is CNY). The hamper comes with a bouquet of flowers and this time, the first time I saw her little face turn red. she told me I am the first to give her flowers. then there comes valentines day. gosh~ this really a headache, dunno what to give. brought her a Peridot pendent that she doesn't replace the one she is wearing(sad) a rose and a self drawn card(more like a cert!). In return, I had two gives as well, a comforter set and a traditional box of chocolate with a card that written my sir name wrongly(yeh?). (to be continue...)